Friday, September 07, 2007

I will need an extra set of arms to do the job I want to do

This is what the wicked are like—
always carefree, they increase in wealth.
Psalms 73:12

Good grief. Does that verse scare anyone else? I read that a few minutes ago and realized how easy it is to be carefree, increasing in wealth. That's what the world tells us to do: get rich, and your worries disappear. Live a comfortable life and you'll be fine.

It scares me because sometimes that is what I think about - having a better quality of life than I do right now. Which is ridiculous, because I already live a very comfortable life. I am wealthy.

People tell me to get prepared to be poor, because teachers don't make any money.

What's funny is that if I'm honest with myself, I would much rather work at a church or something (in some kind of ministry) and not even get paid. When I think about getting a job right now and earning money, versus volunteering to play and hang out with kids who come from rough backgrounds, I would much rather do the latter. I don't have a strong desire to earn money. But I have a passion to work with people. I don't get butterflies when I think about teaching a classroom full of adorable and yet hormonal middle school students. But I do when I think about ministry.

I really think moms have the best/hardest job ever. You get to hang out with your kids all day, nurture them, watch them grow, discipline them, teach them about Christ's love, and love on them. Yet it's a 24/7 job. You get NO time off. You don't get paid, either. And you can still be involved in ministry in some way in the church.

I like the sound of that job. :)

But who knows what God wants me to do with my life. Some people have their lives all planned out. I certainly don't. And apparently I'm not normal because I have no idea what kind of wedding I want. I don't know the first thing about weddings. Who cares. (Hint: getting married is not about a wedding, it's about the marriage after the wedding! Sorry to break it to you, girls!) Imagine if women put as much energy and time into preparing for marriage as they do their weddings. Maybe there would be less divorces...? Just a thought. But I'm getting off track. Back to not knowing what I'm doing with my life.

Yeah, so I don't have my life planned out. I like it that way. I learned when I was 11 that you may think you know what your life will look like in the future, but God has a different plan. You can't plan for yourself.

So I stopped. Well, sort of. In the big future, I say "Whatever, God! Whatever You want!" But in the immediate future, I often try to take things into my own hands and plan it out for myself. I am stubborn and I want to be independent. Shame on me!

The Creator knows His creation better than the creation knows itself. I need to rest in that.

Anyways, I need to go leave to eat lunch with a precious friend. Have a beautiful day!



Ashley said...

Can I just tell you how wise you are?? You are awesome and I LOVE YOU!

You are so right about the wedding thing! With all the people we know who got engaged this summer, about 80% of them are already obsessed with planning their weddings! Yikes! I hope I never get like that, and if I do, you have my permission to slap my wrist. :)

Love this: The Creator knows His creation better than the creation knows itself. I need to rest in that. Goosebumps... and so true!

krene said...

I have no idea what I'm going to do with my future...

and I'm not scared.