Monday, October 15, 2007

Relationships and Such

For the first time since maybe.... March, I was cold today when I walked outside. Fall is here.

At least, I think it is, for a while. All I know is that earlier today it was sunny and warm as I was waiting for the bus, and then after lunch I walked outside to be greeted by intense rain and a cool breeze. I shivered.

I wanted a sweater.


I can't wait to wear sweaters every day!

I love the Fall.

Do you know what else I'm really ready for? This semester to be over. I'm just... not liking it. It's not bad, but I'm not in love with my classes or my schedule. It feels kind of blah, and I am just ready for a new semester. Next semester is Methods. I don't know how I feel about that, either. At least I only have stuff on three days each week: one day at A&M, two days in a school. I need to talk to Ashley to see how it is. I just hope I get a good school! I would totally stay at Sul Ross if I could.

Back to the whole weather topic.

It rained today - hard.

It was soooo beautiful! I got home after getting soaked on campus, and then opened my front door. I also opened all the blinds, put some John Mayer on, lit a candle and snuggled up to work on my homework. Austin came over to hang out while I studied, and we stayed warm and dry inside while listening to the rain falling outside. What a perfect afternoon. :)

The other night, while the band was still in Lubbock, Erin and I got to hang out (our boyfriends are roommates). We were supposed to study, but instead we ended up talking for about 4 and a half hours.

I have learned to put down whatever I am doing if there are relationships that need forming, repairing, nurturing or sustaining. It is something that God has taught me needs to be a priority in my life.

I don't think I'm really at college to get an education.

I'm here to build relationships.

I got baptized in 2004, just a few days before I came to college. A missionary from Argentina was visiting our church that day, and he asked if he could talk to the people who got baptized after church.

He told me that college would be busy for me. So busy, in fact, that he wondered if I would ever get any work done! He said that with a laugh.

I can't tell you how completely true that has been over the past three years! I really don't study that much. I meet with people. They take up most of my time.

Yet God has blessed the time that I do study, and I have decent grades.

They're not amazing, but they're good. I don't need a 4.0. I don't desire a 4.0.

My life isn't about achieving goals or being successful. I laugh because if it was, I would be failing miserably!

I am no where near successful by the world's standards.

That's not what God planned for me.

He planned for me to meet with my friends as often as I can. To put down my books if I'm studying at a coffee shop and talk instead of study.

To stop for a while if I see someone on campus instead of hurrying to class.

I am continuing to learn that I make my life about me, and that's so wrong!

I am not perfect at sustaining relationships that God has placed in my life. I'm really not good at it at all. But God has shown me that relationships are supposed to be important to me.

Pray that I will keep this perspective.

Erin hit the nail on the head as we were talking:

"This [talking and getting to know one another] is what it's all about."



Ashley said...

i love this semester... it's so much more laid back and less stressful. you're actually doing things and discussing things in class that are pertinent. you get the opportunity to teach and see what a real school day is like. we should have a methods chat (on top of other chats we need to have! let's snuggle and listen to john mayer with a candle lit soon... that sounds absolutely amazing!! :))

on that same note, i love this weather too. when it gets colder, we should dress up in our coats and scarves and gloves and take pictures of all its greatness!

oh, and thank you for your encouraging comment! that is why i love you so much and can't imagine life without a katie hill in it!!